Post by tianna engel on Oct 19, 2008 23:01:34 GMT -5
date: october 19 2008
mood: happyyyy~
listening to: jackson's singing in my head >__o
mood: happyyyy~
listening to: jackson's singing in my head >__o
Jackson is amazing. There, I said it. I don't normally fall for guys—like, school-girl-crushes-type of falling. Sure I go around a lot with random (or not so random) guys and girls, but I never actually like...like any of them. At least as nothing more then friends. And I haven't even had sex with him yet! Well...one time...but I'm not going to count that. Gah...but he's just...really cute, and funny. And Jesus, before you know it I'm going to be giggling and being one of those retarded little preppy girls that everyone hates. And wouldn't that just suck? Actually...its probably not possible for me to do that. I mean...can you imagine me wearing pink and giggling? I can't.
Oh...what the hell...you don't even know who I am, do ya? Guess you wouldn't since this is my first entry. So listen up, I ain't repeating any of this to you again. My name is Tia. Though according to my brother my real name was Casey. Feels weird to know I had another name, 'cause I totally don't remember. But anyway. My lovely mother (who apparently was a whore—big surprise there) left me at some random people's house when I was about four or five. Since then I grew up with my 'family'. Who really cares too much about my past though? You know my name and that's enough, right?
So, I'm probably really stupid, but my birthday totally slipped my mind this year. I guess since I didn't have the huge deal over my birthday coming up from my parents and with learning I had a brother and everything I was a bit distracted with things. But I'm sixteen now! Yay! Oh, and don't tell anyone (what the fuck am I saying, your a fucking diary, you can't talk) that I forgot, I'm trying to guilt-trip Ezra about forgetting. Its quite fun. There's something about Ezra that just makes it hilarious to pick on him and piss him off. Which I suppose is mean, coming from his sister—but let's face it, I'm not the nicest person in the group.
I've gotten some really kickass presents this year though. Kaden got me two pairs of Tripps, the ones I really wanted and another pair that are so cool. Kaden, now that kid is definitely a cool one. Even if Ez hates him (though Ezra seems to hate half my friends; like Xio). They fit awesomely too, and I think they look great on me. Jackson said that he loved them too. Not sure why, but it meant a lot to me.
Jackson's present fersure beats all presents in the history of presents though. He got me two tickets for a trip to Iceland. So I'm taking him with me, of course! One: he's the person who got them for me. And two: I have to admit I totally like him. Who else would I take? Probably Ez, if I didn't have the choice of Jackson. I'm not sure exactly when we're gonna go, but as soon as we can, we're going. Because that's what we decided.
Ezra is an asshole *insert pissed of face here*. Yes, you're probably thinking 'way to state the obvious', but seriously. He called me a WHORE today. I'm not saying it might be false, because yeah, most of my actions could be taken for being a 'whore', but still! I agree with Kaden's statement of saying that 'to your own sister, tsk, tsk' or whatever the hell he said. You can't just go around calling your little sister a whore. He did put up a very convincing arguement, however. He's 'seen me have sex with two different guys in the last two days, making out with one of them, kissing a third, and flirting with a fourth'. Which may have been paraphrased, again, but you get my drift. I haven't told Jackson yet, even though it sorta came up...I figure he might get pissed like Kaden did. And Ezra and him are having enough problems between them without me being one of those problems. I guess I'm turning into a considerate person all of the sudden.
Well anyway...I gotspeople to do, things to seeto go to sleep or something, I'm exhausted. Or maybe I'll find Jackson or Ez and hang out with them for a while...whatever.
Peace.