i think we have an 'Emergency;

[Kaden Ferris]

Mood;; confuzzled
Listening to;; It’s Warmer in the Basement—Cobra Starship

..Why the crap am I writing a journal, anyways? I have no earthly idea....I just...am. Whatever. Okay, anyways, Mort talked to me the other day....apparently he wants Evan and Xio to break up as well...gah......why does Evan have to be so damn cute? And hot? And all that shit? Why? It just....confuses me...we were friends before anything. I mean, sure, I thought he was pretty damn hot when I met him in freshman year, but I really didn’t start to like him until after we were the closest of friends. And it kills me, because like I said, he’s my best friend.

And that Xio chick. I must admit, score for Evan for getting a senior chick, but she pisses me off. Not that she gets to have Evan, although that is a part of it, I do confess. No, it’s the fact that she assumes the worst from me. She hates me. So what else can I do but hate her back?? I try to be nice, for Evan’s sake, at least, but sometimes she just....urgh. I try and just keep Evan happy. I would rather he have that smile on his face than anything...but it still hurts that he’s happy with someone else....you know?

And Asher. Gawd, that guy is a prick -.-; So, the other day, after I hit Xio with a rock and Evan got all pissed at me, Trent was there too. Thank goodness that Evan and Xio were outside...even though Evan was super ticked at me. Anyways, so, he and Asher are always together. Well, Asher left for a bit, heavens knows why. But then Trent came up, and started telling me that I was cute. So, I replied that he was cuter, which is totally true. So we went back and forth and all that, and he told me to shut up. So I had the smart idea to reply with “make me.” And he, of course, kissed me. Hey, the most effective way to make one shut up, yes? Of course, it was a good kiss. Trent has always been a good kisser. <3

So Asher came back after that and got all pissed and threw a lamp at us. I scampered away and illused that I wasn’t there...so Asher couldn’t find me and kill me. Because I swear that it was going to happen if he knew where I was. But then recently Asher has been...well, nice, for lack of a better word, to me. Totally odd, I know.

Worse than that? He’s started calling me Denny. All because Kjara tried to give me a nickname, and I remarked that I needed a more nicknamable name...and Asher was there and said Denny. So now he calls me that. Could that be anymore annoying? The worst part is the fact that other people are calling me that. Like Blake. She calls me that now. And it sucks sooo much. And then, today, after I pretty much gave up trying to stop me, he said I owed him an apology for kicking him. Yeah, I kicked him, but there was a reason behind it. I can’t recall the reason...but it’s there...so then he said something along the lines of “are you saying I imagined it all?” so I agreed. And we went back and forth. No, I didn’t say make me; neither did he, but all of a sudden, he kissed me. And if that wasn’t weird enough....I kind of liked it.

Now, like Xio, he started to hate me first, and I have never denied the fact that he really is pretty hot. And a good kisser, as I’ve found out. Damn, he can kiss. But it’s so confusing...he kissed me..and he was the one that didn’t like me from the start....but then I kissed him back, and he got all shocked about it..he initiated it...what a weirdo. But it’s just all so confusing. Why did he kiss me??? Gah...life sucks sometimes. -__-

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[Kaden Ferris]

Mood;; super confuzzled.....
Listening to;; nothing but my own thoughts...

10:35 am
Oh. My. Gawd. Do you know what I woke up to this morning? First off, I woke up naked. Second, I woke up to find myself in a room not my own. I don’t even know where the hell it is, because I raced out of there so fast. Third, and the most horrifying factor?? Asher Harris was lying next to me, his arms wrapped around me, naked. I really didn’t want to wake him up, no, not because he was so peaceful sleeping or some shit like that. No, I really didn’t want to wake him up because I had no clue what would happen. It was around that time that I remembered what had happened. I think, anyways. I fucking had sex with Asher Harris. ....maybe that’s why I felt so weird when I woke up. Whatever. I won’t deny anything, it was pretty fucking great. But just...messed up. I have no clue what was running through my head when I was doing it.....

So, I eased out from Asher’s grasp and got dressed. Just after I opened the door, I heard a moan behind me. He woke up. However, I didn’t pay any attention and quickly slipped out. So here I am again, in my dorm....wait...this isn’t the best place to be....gawd....he’s in my dorm....that means he’d probably come here next...shit...I’ve gotta get out of here, bye.


11:38 pm
Mood;; slightly annoyed
Listening to;; The Church of Hot Addiction-Cobra Starship

I cannot fucking believe Asher Harris. Okay, so I was hanging around...somehwhere [aka the chouse] and Trenton came in. Things were a bit....awkward after what happened last night with Asher and me. Then Daileh and Cara got into some girl fight...oh, and Evan came in, too. Well, Evan didn’t like Dai and Cara fighting...so we left...but we didn’t go far...anyways, I couldn’t help but still hear Asher and Trent’s conversation....stupid enhanced hearing. Anyways, so...Asher fucking told Trent that he slept with me!!! I cannot believe the nerve of him! I seriously thought that Trent was going to kill me or something. I mean, yeah, I’ve slept with him and shit......but he’s like...super protective of Asher..or so I thought. I was hiding outside, just in case. Evan had no clue what was going on. Then again, he wouldn’t be able to hear them, because they were kind of far away.
From what I heard, before leaving, Trent was leaving Asher....it’s fucking Asher’s fault, probably. Asher didn’t have to tell him, now did he? I wouldn’t have told Trenty, no matter how hot the guy is. Oh well....
Asher Harris pisses me off. End of story. :]

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[Kaden Ferris]

November 6th

>____o dude...I thought I had lost this journal...I seriously did. But..I found it. It fell in the crack beside my bed. Never thought it’d be there, really. The sheets had blocked me from seeing it when I checked under the bed, apparently....

Anyways, so much has happened since I last wrote in here. It’s hard to remember everything, but here are the basics.

1. I’ve been hanging around Parker more and more. It’s...weird...but not in a bad way, or anything. I hang around him more than any other guy, except maybe Evan. But I’m actually..you know...having sex with Parker. Which is the odd part. I like...really enjoy just being around him. Just cuddling and shit. Which...isn’t like me. It isn’t like me at all. I guess......I dunno....when I’m around him...I feel...well...something. I dunno what....but it’s different than what I feel around Evan..and just....I don’t know...

2. Jackson hates me. And, when I first made him hate me, Parker was moody at me. Basically it was this. Jackson and Tia--....oh...right...Tia. Okay, so it turns out that Ezra has a sister...Tia. This really hot chick. Ez hates me more, now, because I’ve been fucking her. Well, that’s not why Ez hates me...Ez hates me because we’re friends, anyways. xD ANYWAY! Jackson and Tia decided to start a game of Truth or Dare. I didn’t want to play, at first--who would want to play truth or dare instead of possibly fucking? Parker, that is--but I was dragged into playing by Parker. It started off with Jackson asking me. I don’t know why, but I picked truth. So he asked me who I last fucked, besides Parker. It was Tia, and I said so. But, apparently, there’s a thing going on between Jackson and Tia, and he got all pissed at me and Tia. Parker did too, a bit. Me and Tia smoothed it over a bit, but I still think Jackson wants to murder me. Every time he sees me, he turns around and leaves...luckily, the only times he has seen me was when he was with Tia, anyways...she would’ve stopped him if he tried. I shudder to think what would happen if he stumbled upon me without Tia anywhere. Anyways, Parker is better about it, too. Luckily.

3. Dai has me wrapped around her finger. Like...seriously. Mort, the bastard, hurt Parker a lot, and then slashed me in the gut. Of course, me, being the pussy and fainting at the sight of...well...you know, did so. It sucks. I think Mort hurt him more after I was out cold...and that pisses me off. He seemed a bit iffy when I woke up...because he happened to be the one to revive me. How cute, really. Anyways. He left for a bit, I think, then came back, and we fucked later. He left a bit later, probably to go to bed or something. I don’t get much sleep; I don’t need it as much as some others; and Dai was there. She basically said that if I keep Cara away from Mort, because apparently the girl is always with him or something, and Daileh is jealous of that; then she’ll keep Mort away from Parker. I don’t want anything bad to happen to Parker. I mean, he’s my friend, I don’t want him to get hurt. Not to mention if that happened, I would have one less sex buddy, you know? And I think I already lost Tia, because of Jackson. So, yeah. I’m pretty screwed. I illusioned Cara into a forest with all this shit, and then let it dissipate when Dai said to. I pretty much konked out after that. But then, yesterday, Mort threw me into the lake. Via his shadows, of course. I already know it was him, no matter that he says that the things have a mind of their own. Apparently he’s pissed that I screwed with Cara’s mind with the illusion, because Cara apparently knew it was me, and told Mort. Lovely.


4. Oh, one more thing. Parker told me he loved me. I didn’t know what to say after that. It’s my fault, really. I think it is, Parker doesn’t. He started to say something and then stopped, and I told him to tell me and he told me that. Then he was apologizing like crazy, saying that he shouldn’t have said that. When he said that, though.....like...my heart...tugged or something. I don’t know. It’s so confusing. Could it be possible that I love Parker, too?? It’s just so confusing, because of Evan being there...I love Evan. But now Parker....I don’t know. But I did tell Parker that I really liked him, to patch things up. I didn’t want him to be all weird around me. But...a part of me tells me it isn’t a complete lie, though. I mean, I know it isn’t a complete lie, I really do like Parker, but not in that way....I don’t think. But like I said, something said that I meant a part of it, and meant it in..that way. I just don’t know >____<;;


In other news, Asher still hates me. I talked to him a couple days after...that happened. We kissed a couple of times after that incident, and I didn’t deny any of it. I mean, damn, Asher is pretty hot. Then he got all pissy with me for some reason. I don’t know why. I haven’t talked to him much, since then. Ezra still hates me...

OH! And with Parker? Before, him and Fletcher were all -lovelove- before, but they sorta broke up or something. Whatever. But they’re still kinda flirty...and it pisses me off for some reason. I was talking to Fletcher one day about it, and how he had Andrew, his vampire boyfriend, and Fletcher got all pissed at me and freeping locked me in the fireplace! I was burning for about 10 minutes, maybe more. It sucked. I still have burn scars! And I think I’ll have them for like...ever. And another note on that is that around halfway through before I was let out, Ezra heard me banging and yelling to be let out and shit, and he encased the fireplace in a metal box. So I really was stuck in it. He offered to let me g if I were to be his slave or some shit. Hah! Yeah, right. Whatever. Fucking idiot.

That’s about all that has really happened since I lost my journal. A day in the life of me. Or several days in my life. Or weeks. Maybe a month or two. However long it was since I wrote in here.

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